I just love these sooo much, MKMA :)

Holding on to these

"Dark and light, it's just a skin tone. Doesn't mean the darker you are makes you uglier."

"Guys should love you not because of the looks. Yes, looks is what captures your eyes but PERSONALITY captures your attention."

Everything's tearing apart and help is nowhere to be found. I feel like people have been using me like they wanted to without me realizing it myself. The only thing that I did was thinking about other people's feelings but mine. Just imagine how stupid I was, neglecting my own needs just to satisfy others'. I can't even remember the last time I did something for myself. I should stop this bullshit from going any further even if it's gonna hurt a lot.

Got red in the face :}

Wasted my not so precious time yesterday by going to The Curve with Ahmad and Hilmi to do nothing. Like seriously, we did nothing. I'm glad that Hilmi actually wanted to hangout with me again, still we didn't talk much. I surely believed both of us were slightly shy at each other. Awkward much? Well if it was, then I wanna be real friends with him tomorrow as I'll be having a mini open house for my friends tomorrow. Thought of going out with Ahmad, Nikkie & Hilmi tomorrow though :3

Gleesome

Things went well, very well. Actually feeling loved all the time. Did so many merry things through out the week and I feel blessed. Currently, with dear Amunk. I like him. Love him actually. He's my ex-boyfriend, still, he's okay to be with me now. Not like others, when you're an ex you gotta have a war. Pfftt, stupe.

Amunk actually called me for 5 hours yesterday, starting from 2:30PM till 7:30AM. It was content. Hours of laughter, tears, treacly, what could I even ask for more? Sunken by the sleepless night with him, a person who was willing to spend his money and time, don't forget his saliva for talking, just to accompany me that night was wondrous. It's rare for people to actually accompany me, only several people who cares about me. One of 'em is obviously Amunk, we were living our gay lives. Someone to count on, someone to care, him. The beautiful night with the shining stars took away the murk sky. I felt so fine, finer than fine. Yes, I didn't have my dream time nor sleep time but it was totally worth it to know our actual feelings when we had our heart to heart talk. Thanks God for giving me this life, I owe You, I always do. Alhamdulillah.

Told you I'm happy with my life now, with these great kind of friends by my side, I will never be a loner again. Everything's bright when they're with me. People who I actually could believe in.

We do this often.

Just got back from The Curve with Ahmad. Our intention was just to get a bite at McD. Went to The Curve just to have McD. Tafak? Actually Rawang's McD was packed as hell so we went to Damansara instead. Went at 9PM, got back at 12:30AM. Don't even think why we were so long there, we were fuckingly insane I tell ya. Thanks for the night brah ♥

P/S : Ahmad gave me a necklace, which was his before. Tengkayu broooooo.

I hate this feeling. One moment we're okay, then the next's like shit. Even friendship could be this hard? Because of that, now I have second thought of being like this. Maybe I should, maybe I shouldn't. Fuck. I need a fucking break to fucking rest.

20, a big number for a big boy, Khaimin Ali xxx

First of all, a very happy belated birthday to you, my dearly ex-boyfriend :)

Even though we had good times together and we don't now, doesn't mean we to fight, right? Now, you're like my big brother who still protects me from any harm. Thank you for that :) I hate quarreling and I don't want us to start any. Let's just be friends, if you're willing to, and have happy moments from now on. It's not a crime to have a brand new friendship after a kind of relationship. It's hard, it is, but we'll make it through. I'm okay with it because I want to stay positive and I hope you don't mind doing the same thing. Again, happy birthday big bro. I'll still love you as one of the people who cares about me :) xoxo

The 3 Smurfeteers owning the day.

Got my weekend filled with joy and laughter, even on my Trial week. I don't think it's a crime.

It all started last Saturday when I was sending Lucky, my precious black dirty cat for a grooming at the Pet Safari, IPC. Just imagine waiting for a cat to bathe and clean itself for almost 2 hours. I got myself blistered by walking around and around waiting for him. You owe me big time, you cute fat black precious annoying cat. After 2 hours, finally I'm released from fatal boredom when Lucky went back with Mama & Papa, leaving me alone there. On second thought, I'm alone. Alone means lonely and lonely means nothing to do. So, called Ahmad and asked him to bring Nikkie to The Curve so that we can watch a movie together as I was as bored as a lost fat chicken. They arrived at 5 something at we went to e-Curve to watch a movie. There were Nasi Lemak 2.0, Karipap Karipap Cinta, Hantu Bonceng whatsoever and I was like, is this a cinema or a Malay stall? I wanted to watch The Smurfs but then it will be starting at 7 and I was searching for a movie that starts at that particular time. Wasted about an hour on deciding what movie to watch, we decided to go to OU and just hangout instead of watching a movie.

Ahmad drove us there and we were like going in and out Forever21 and F.O.S and found nothing interesting. Nikkie wanted to buy a sweater, but then we coudln't find any, nothing pretty. Blurgh, talking about nicest things in OU. I don't know why but Ahmad was pretty silent and we keep pulling him to walk with us and as usual I forced him to smile because I can't look at his serious face. It's like he's gonna kill somebody or something. Then he told me something and so, I know why he was kinda moody and gloomy. Couldn't find anything to buy and was feeling like breaking my own legs with the blistered heel, we went to watch a movie rather than walking around hurting ourselves. Finallyyyyy, it was the time for The Smurfs for another 10 mins. What I didn't like about it was Ahmad paid for our movie tickets without telling us anything and it was RM50 something because of the 3D. Then Nikkie & I quickly went to buy caramel popcorns and soft drinks for us and a big combo for Ahmad. Hehe, shake that. Anybody that spends their money on me gonna get my money spent on them back :)

The Smurfs was epic and I'm drooled by their extreme cuteness! I asked Ahmad whether I can pet them or something and he replied by saying only cute people like him can pet a smurf. Pffftttt, shut up Mad. Felt like puking you know. The movie ended at 9 and we rushed to the parking to get back home because we were afraid that Nikkie's mom gonna scold her or something if she gets back late. Things got better when there was a jam at Damansara, followed by Rawang. Nikkie actually slept in the car while Ahmad and I were crapping and made fun of people around us. Haha, we couldn't stop talking and laughing even though we were stuck in the freakin' jam. Just imagine, 1 hour of butt cramping in the car. But pity Ahmad because he was driving us here and there and he said his legs hurt badly. Still, he was speeding like 140-160 km/h just to make sure we could send Nikkie back on time. We got back by 10 and luckily Nikkie said she was okay. Phew, one goal striked for me and Ahmad. I told Ahmad to rest and just sleep instead of waking up all night long to call me or Nikkie. Good boy, he listened. Had a really fun day with Nikkie and Ahmad, as usual, and hopefully we could go out again after Trial or after SPM.